A Very Unusual Thing

So, howdy, bloggy land. It's been a loooooooooooooong time since I wrote a blog, and I'd love to tell you all the reasons why it's been such a looooooooooooooooong time, but well, that would take a really looooooooooooong time and then you'd get bored and maybe click somewhere else and well, then I'd be sad.... :'(

So, I'm just gonna get to the point, k? ;o)

I did a very unusual thing the other day. A friend of mine and I were sitting at my table visiting at 1 in the morning - no, that's not the unusual thing, although that IS unusual for me! ANYWAY, we were sitting and visiting and I decided to pull out my journal I use during my devotional times and we went back and starting looking at OLD entries. It was hysterical if I do say so myself. So, anyway, I was brought to tears of mirth by mine own hand and I just thought I would share some with y'all. Now, this one isn't the funniest of all, but I just don't think I could put that entry out into the vast expanse of the Internet. I'd be embarrassed! YES. I DO have my limits! :D So, here it is, hope you like it! :D

Isaiah 64-66 / 2 Kings 20-22

Today's reading is about Hezekiah, Manasseh and Amon. I’m a bit baffled by Hezekiah. He did much to right Israel to a place of proper fellowship and relationship with Jehovah-God, but well, he seemed a bit more than selfish and maybe a bit prideful too??? I mean, he showed men from countries he was not allied with all that he had in the palace and temple. I mean, wasn’t that a little bit stupid? Also, when Isaiah came back and told him everything that was going to happen because of his poor decision, he was only concerned with himself and his lifetime. He basically didn’t care he’d doomed his children and / or grandchildren, but as long as it wasn’t going to happen in his lifetime, it was okay with him. Seriously, dude? SELFISH!

I’m Hezekiah… L I’m selfish. I don’t often think further than the end of my nose. I make hasty decisions that are prideful with no thought to the consequences of those decisions. Sigh. Lord, why do you put up with me? Sometimes, my only motivation is whether or not something is going to cause me turmoil. Now, I know that turmoil can be a sign of problems and / or issues, but it shouldn’t be my determining factor for what I do and how I act. God’s Word should have that distinction. However, I often find myself using the factor of whether or not my decision is going to cause me grief. Sigh. Seriously, Nell?

Lord, please forgive my selfish heart. I want to be pleasing in Your sight. I don’t want to only be concerned with my own comfort. Please cleanse me and grow me out of being selfish. I kinda cringe even saying that because I know it will be painful, but I need You to give me some gumption to suck it up through the pain and act like a grown-up. I love You, Lord.